“Rest In Peace” was the first thing I saw, as I signed in to IG that Saturday morning… my best friend of 13 years gone after tying a noose around her neck, the night before she was found near the broken window sill in her bedroom. A day that changed my life forever.

There are earthquake moments in your life that dramatically change you.. and this was one of them.. I thought I would cry or immediately break down… but I got up out of bed washed up, ran downstairs and told my parents Tryphena is gone she passed away… and Im going to her house now.

In shock they simply told me to go.. Listening to Hillsongs new album at the time “What a beautiful name” as I drove almost 80mph down the Long Island Expressway.

Her death forced me to take another look at my faith.

A lot of people nowadays, speak about deconstructing their faith… I did it before it was popularly a trend.

I left my faith on the road behind me on the way to her house… for the last time…

When I say I “Left my faith” I want to be clear…

My faith was in myself… I looked to myself, my intellect, my perspective on what it meant to walk with Jesus…

Truth of the matter is, I often walked ahead of him… and not beside Him.

I realized that on that Saturday morning…

So I left it all on the drive there with tears in my eyes…

Jesus… help me… if you’re truth then Im going to search for you like I never have before…

I dropped my faith that day… and I searched for Him with all my heart… because He said if I do… I’ll find him… and he will reward me when I do so diligently

The rest is as they say…

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